The Hospital

institutionalised
it's a very cold, sinister sounding word
like something from another decade
outdated
conjures up images of
white walls
conformity
captivity

it's not really so bad
safe, secure, comforting
a break from the outside world
quiet
but in a moment, chaos
I do not mind
for some unknown reason
this place soothes me

but I do miss the others
to whom I did the unthinkable
I have become the unforgivable
I'm not strong
perhaps that's why I'm here
but I do miss them
and pray they'll visit me
I can't entirely leave this world

soon I shall return
I wonder if that's such a good thing
if I can survive out there
it's a dog-eat-dog world
and I'm not so sure I can face it

Written by Rachel 30/10/2002